现在是4.55am，在那么“早”的凌晨，我为何还没睡？
读书？堕落的猫怎么可能会在读书呢？
失眠吗？也许吧！
有时会问自己，我真的有考试压力吗？在考试期间特别爱吃真的是因为压力吗？
第一次感觉要放弃自己，放弃自己的一切!真颓废！（堕落，颓废的猫）
最近觉得自己并没有别人或自己想象的那么坚强！
开始变胆小了！
开始容易被惊吓了！
开始爱依赖人了！
开始想哭了！
变得有点怪怪的！忽然想到“猫姥姥”，我是吗？
开始发觉人到了某些年龄，会觉得身边的朋友越来越少！
真的是这样吗？还是我离群了？
身边朋友常叫我去聚会，但我都拒绝了，朋友们都很奇怪，为何我如此避忌？
不了自己为何如此避忌！忘了自己都给些什么烂借口！
是我自己的问题吧，总觉得有点怪，但也难为了我身边的朋友，为了迁就我而带给他们不便。
2007快结束了，在新的一年改变自己吧！
把该放开的放，该接受的收。
5.24am，是时候逼自己睡觉了！
当一个人只想睡觉，吃东西，看电视，上网，到处乱跑，毫无方向地走---->悠闲
当一个人在考试期间还在“悠闲”的话----〉堕落
我现在就在堕落，会堕落或沦陷到什么地步？
我不懂。
堕落的天使会贬为人，
堕落的人会下地狱，贬为鬼（懒鬼！）
堕落的鬼呢？变为人?(人有时比鬼还可怕！）
那堕落的猫呢？会变成什么？
the most famous topic in the world or simply can say the things that girl care and caution much now, stature!!!
corpulence- how to describe this word? fat? big size? or strong body?
well, how we conclude that the people are corpulence?
based on weight? BMI? inches of waist? size of body? eye looking?
first, we discuss about weight, in Asia country, weight more than 50 kilograms then can concluded as fat already. unfortunately, mine weight more than that so i am fat or big size also.
second, BMI calculate, weight/height(meter*meter)= bmi
- Underweight = <18.5
- Normal weight = 18.5-24.9
- Overweight = 25-29.9
- Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
third, inches of waist- standard scale 24inches of waist is the best. when you have scale like 36-24-36 (breast-waist-hip) then u not need worry about your weight, size and other people comment but you have to care your BMI because sure it is underweight, whereas girls or ladies would like to stay in underweight all the time.
forth, size of body- when you have (36-24-36) then your body size will look like coca-cola glass bottle size, the most beautiful body size. if your hip are bigger then your body will look like peer, if you are big all the size (36-36-36) then people will say you are big oil-can.
last, eye looking- people conclude you are fat or slim with their eye. black color will let people see you more slim, high heels can make you look taller, slimmer and your leg longer. that why ladies love high heel even it is suffer when u wearing it.
i quite tall but nobody will notice about because of my weight make look like normal height (around 162), because of my weight, people always say i look strong (壮）or big size(大只）, some small kids will say i fat also (胖，肥）. my dad console me always that i just look "bigger" because i am tall, he told me i have a long leg (but hinder that my leg thick （粗） so it did not look long leg at all) some can say is buffalo leg. my roomie say i have a nice should (broad) but this consider as big size especially i stand with my mom, cousin that all of them are small size. many people ask why i do not look like my mom? thin and small and beautiful eye, i just only have a high nose that same with my mom (finally, i fell proud of that).
highly recommend watch this singing competition that showing in Taiwan now. after u watch it,only u realize how good they if compare with Malaysia singing competition.
超级星光大道！！！
最近参加了两个活动，一个是一贯道的义卖活动，另一个是大学华文学会活动，现在才清楚的知道我是如此享受这样的忙碌。其实，在中学也常参加这些活动，但自从发生了些事情后，我对于我在这方面的能力失去了信心，希望这次可以在这里寻回我的信心及自己。
首先，来分享我第一次当义卖会的义工的感受。那天，我五点凌晨就起身，只睡了两个小时，是一个脾气非常暴躁的早晨。去到了Bukit Jalil， 才知道自己需要顾一个游戏档口，然后十点负责照顾一班孤儿，非常简单的工作，只需带他们去买食物，一小时后他们就会回。
在这短短的一小时里，我体会，领悟了许多东西。活了二十年，我才发觉自己其实得到了很多，很多，面对那一班孤儿，我才知道我是幸运的，至少我父母没离弃我，他们一直都在我身边包容我，满足我的需求;面对他们才知道自己一直以来是如此幼稚，奢侈，你知道吗，面对他们，我们是没资格埋怨!
那天，我带了两个小孩，一个十四岁，一个九岁，非常幸运的她们都很乖巧，是个要求不多的女孩。在她们临走前，那十四岁的女孩告诉我，我非常好。你知道吗，这四个字的意义对我有非常大的影响。原来，我们只须付出少少就可以温暖他人。
we always expect what people will do for us but when we expect what people will do, have we ever think what we can do for people?
我有非常多的希望，但从现在开始我会慢慢减少自己的希望然后让别人对我有所希望。现在的我有点复杂，我希望自己简单点，这样的我或许会快乐点然后再寻回自我。
原来人与人的误会是如此简单，
质疑，指责就能带来误会，
当有误会时，一切的对话都会被误解，就连道歉也只是程序上的表面功夫，
一切的对话都充满了虚伪，怀疑，一切的相处及作为都会被认为是做作。
非常惊讶，原来对一个人反感是如此简单，
不是真心的道歉，还道歉来做什么？
finally, i can update my blog already, so busy in this two weeks, all problems, assignment, presentation, quiz, midterm come continuous. lot of things i want to to share but no time and mood for me to update my blog. actually, i have my moral midterm tomorrow (not yet start do revision) but i still need to write something here.
okay, start my story from last two week, my house or can say my house business face some problem and make me fell so bad, especially my dad. heard he crying sound first time in the phone and ask me to take good care to my home and others things and i din't disappoint him also,done all things well (even i very busy in that few days). anyway, he is ok and everything is ok now and me will get well soon also. i had cry few times during that period, just like what i mention before i hate myself when i can't control my tears. therefore, i will try to smile more now.
now talk about my uni life, manegerial communication-interest subject, need to talk much, present yourself much, beside presentation moment and lecture class moment, i think i quite enjoy it especially the company interview that i went tuesday. erm, very lucky v got company accept our interview that is KPJ HEALTHCARE, know this company?u know Tawakal Hospital or Ampang Puteri Hospital? those hospital are under KPJ Healthcare. the company PR&Marketing executive name Ng Wai Kiat accept our interview. A nice, interesting and talkative man, enjoy his interview or talk from him. he is a chinese mix indian if i not mistaken and if i had asked him a private question during the interview that is how many languages he can speak and he told me 10!!! omg, really geng!!! he can speak 3 dialect of indian, mandarin, cantonese, hokkien sikit, hakka can listen well, malay, english and he said he learning arabian now. he is enjoying his working life (sure u will say that if u see him). anyway, i appreciate his help. i will upload our interview photo soon,now still in process.
last i wan to share is i trying to leave down something and let it go. just like what my friend said
WHEN IT IS OVER, THEN IT WAS OVER
cross your finger for me
街角的祝福 - 戴佩妮
曲︰戴佩妮
詞︰戴佩妮
編︰戴佩妮／陳達偉
多少個秋 多少個冬
我幾乎快要被治癒好
但還是會只因為一個重覆的話題
就無心自擾
也曾想過 若真遇見
我們應該如何是好
我想我還是會還站在某一個街角
不讓你看到
只因為我不想打擾
只因為怕你解釋不了
只因為現在你的眼睛裡
她比我還重要
我只好假裝我看不到
看不到你和她在對街擁抱
你的快樂 我可以感受得到
這樣的見面方式對誰都好
我只好假裝我聽不到
聽不到別人口中的她好不好
再不想問 也不想被通知到
反正你的世界我管不了
若不想問 若不想被通知到
就把祝福 留在街角
*以前我很喜欢一个男生，但我很清楚和了解我跟他是不可能，
这首歌会令我联想到他，我曾经以为我不会在遇见他，
对他的一切我也只是抱着不闻不问的态度，但他如今出现在我面前，
我只好假装，再假装什么事都没有。
Today is Deepavali, what festival are not so important for me, main thing is "holiday". Yup, just like what i mentioned just now, is school holiday today(i din't back home) and me just sitting in front of my computer without doing anything. Actually is sitting in front of my computer thinking where i can go. Ya ya, thats right i haven't make any decision yet.
my friend offer me a great plan to pass this holiday that is go KL find her then we go eat nice dinner then watch movie after she finished her work, before that i can hanging around. But, that is weird. I am so happy have this kind of nice plan but i still yea and nay. i don't know what i wish for, what i waiting for and what i worry for. i hate the feeling like this, i hate my mood interrupt by other things. i just feel lost, why i will become like this? I want to watch movie, now have a great offer to me to watch movie with my buddy but why i just can't agree, go and watch..
OH, DAMN THING....
Seem i am so free that standing in front of pc library while waiting for my next class (12pm). The only thing i can do just update my blog to spent this useless time...
Same with last few day, first week of new sem damn boring,. actually i should be very busy today, class start from 8am to 7pm,juz only break 2hours but the annoucement from MMLS show me that Moral class (4pm - 7pm) was cancelled!!!hehe...the causes of my nice mood now but cancelled of this class doesn't affect me much because i didn't plan to back home to celebrate "deepavali" so.....^;^
Stil thinking what i want to do and what can i do tomorrow (Deepavali). Go KL shopping alone,watch movie alone (my frens say i "bing tai" cos can watch movie alone) or just stay cyberjaya watch TVB drama, find some ghost clip i like to watch in youtube?
People wondering why i don't want to back home since i have no class on friday..hehe...
Easy,
i don't like back home cos i don't like to stay home;
i don't like to stay home cos i don't want be prisoner again after my 3weeks holiday.
weird right??yup, totally agree i am a weird people..
WUN mien = WEIRD mien
here,wish HAPPY DEEPAVALI to all my Hindu friends.
